THE START OF A NEW BEGINNING

"A new baby is like the beginning of all things - wonder, hope and a dream of possibilities." 

- Eda Le Shan

In October 2015 I found out I was pregnant and to my dismay I was really shocked and somewhat disappointed in myself. Only because I hadn't finished my university degree, I wasn't financially or mentally stable enough to cope with looking after ANOTHER person. Against all odds I kept my baby and lost a partner in the process resulting in me becoming a SINGLE parent - the start of a new beginning. 

Honestly, at this point I felt like giving up and just laying in bed for the rest of my life but in a weird way the life growing inside me gave me a reason to keep going. I knew what I had gotten myself into and I knew what I had to do. Some how I found the motivation to get up everyday work my two jobs and still commute to university every week. Truth be told I was really blessed to have supportive friends and family who kept me in their prayers and who were there for me to listen to me rant about the child's father (but thank God I got over him and the situation). 

I've never been so scared of anything in my life before but the thought of being a single parent scared the sh*t out of me. I was raised by just my mother and I saw her struggle sometimes and I didn't want this to be the case for my own child and TBH I pictured my life to be different before I even had children... a family.  

I was more concerned about if I was going to have a social life, have the freedom to get up and travel the world and just having ME time. It took me a while to get over this stage but once I did I realised how blessed I was for God to give me a child, a gift a true blessing and a sign I needed the most after battling Depression. 

I found a new love of life and motivation to pursue things in life such as actually attending lectures and starting a business. It wasn't an easy  journey being pregnant but now I am at the end I can appreciate the new blessing thats about to come and enjoy every moment with her ( my baby Gemini) thats her name by the way. It's funny because we could potentially share the same birthday and we are both Gemini's- a true reflection of her mummy. 

I am writing this post because I want to inspire other young females who have unexpectedly become pregnant and feel like they won't be able to still live their lives... This is never the case. There is a reason for everything happening at that time and no matter what situation you are faced with, there is a LIGHT at the end of the tunnel. God didn't bring you this far to leave you in struggle... there is a time for everything and everything in it's place. Now I understand when people say when you have a child everything changes- yes because more blessings to come and you develop a new profound way of thinking and it's TRULY amazing. 

For my baby shower I wore a lace 3/4 length sleeved maxi dress from ASOS, which was amazing because I genuinely felt like a princess. I had my make up done by an MUA who is also my friend (Instagram - @ajbeauty_) check her out she's amazing. Everything was so perfect that day I even cried so many kind and lovely souls attended and it filled me with so much joy, excitement and anticipation.

Thank you so much for reading my blog post and I hope you find a little bit of inspiration. Have a blessed Sunday and week, Also don't forget to subscribe to my Youtube Channel, follow me on Instagram and Twitter x